It is hard for me to speak words to you; I can only weep whenever I think of you. For some inexplicable reason, my inner self feels such profound sorrow and pain, only tears stream down my cheeks. Every time I prostrate myself in prayer, I can only say: If only you knew how much sadness and suffering fill my life. If only you could hear the deepest grief in my heart. How the tears of anguish flow in our family now, with siblings who are no longer harmonious, shattered and in ruins. Our family's economy lies in ruins, destroyed by a selfish and greedy leader who has wrecked every structure of our family life. My sacrifices have been squandered by the deceit and lies of a man who is so hard to call "father," for his attitudes, words, behavior, and character have never deserved that title. If you were in my place now, how should I live my life? If I could beg the Almighty, perhaps only my death would bring relief from this endless pain. But I cannot even say that, for you taught me to live with awareness, always remembering you to remain steadfast and patient amid life's sufferings.
Thaykong, I can only pray that you hear this prayer from the depths of my heart. I hope you remain forever in my thoughts and heart. In our past life, you suffered for so long, waiting for me after I departed first at the young age of 24 or 25, having to fight and die as a soldier born in another place. Though I knew you as someone else, I believe your deepest soul and inner essence remain the same, the one I have awaited and longed for since my rebirth, even from the age of two, when I already knew you had waited and suffered for me for so long. Thank you for your sincerity, boundless love, and affection. May we meet again someday, whenever that may be, and I hope you are always happy and one day remember everything about me.
Written by: Kepik Romantis / PVA
January 09, 2026
